What means so little to you means a lot to me

31 Oct

What would it have been like, to go out trick or treatin’.
Im sure id stuff my bag and then be home just eatin’
all the candy sweets and yummy treats
I’ll never know what it’d be like
to see hallo-ween tonight
thru the eyes of a pre-teen
..it’s my first Halloween

yeah it’s Halloween again…the one holiday that fucks me up. I never got to go trick or treating, I never got to go to school in costume, I never got to dress as my favorite super hero or as a scary monster, I never got to come to school the next day with a gigantic bag of candy, I never got to even give out candy to children.

This is how I spent my Halloween nights. In the darkness..Quiet. We’d all hide and turn off the lights. I’d see the children walk by the window, dressed up, happy, ring the doorbell..wait..ring the doorbell..wait..and walk away somewhat sad..but they know the next door..there will be treats. What could be so evil about this? Why would god forbid it? What kind of fucked-up stick-up-their-ass fuckups made a religion such as this, one that denies children Christmas, Easter, Halloween, valentines day, thanksgiving, new years..any fucking thing that brings a measure of unity and joy among people.

My little brother was once asked if he could celebrate any holiday..which would it be..and the little guy said Halloween. One day maybe I can steal him away from my mom..just for one Halloween night..and go trick or treating. I don’t want him to end up like me..on the verge of tears every fucking second of the day on Halloween because of what he never got to do but so desperately wanted to. Fuck you Jehovahs witness. Fuck you watchtower bible and tract society of Pennsylvania. Fuck you governing body members of Brooklyn bethel. Fuck your uptight holier than though dogmatic cultist minds. You think you serve god but you serve only your egos. If there is a place of eternal suffering it is reserved for the likes of you. You not only deny children the things that make them happy, the things that deny childhood, but you send them to their graves. you fail to protect them against predatory pedophiles. instead of shielding the children you protect the pedophile molesters.

Can you tell i’m just a little bitter about being raised a Jehovahs Witness? Just wait till Christmas rolls around..

tonight I am going door-to-door trick or treating for the very first time with my friend Rachel


Rachel, you don’t know how much this means to me, thanks 🙂


4 Responses to “What means so little to you means a lot to me”

  1. mistystarr October 31, 2002 at 9:52 am #

    Trick or Treat, Smell my Feet, Give me Something Good To Eat
    Geez…why were they so against it? did they think it was the Devil’s holiday or somethin? I think my mom started thinkin that acouple years back…but shes ok now. She is or my brother is going to pass out candy tonight which we havent done in a long ass time. I hope you have!!!!!!:)

  2. iaintblue October 31, 2002 at 10:36 am #

    You’re not alone Dan. It’s my first Halloween too. My parents are turning off all the lights and watching movies in their room… I’m gonna stand in my front yard (my M.S. uncle and pioneer Aunt live right next door) and hand out candy to all the little kids. Then my best friend is coming over to watch ‘IT’ with me… oh, and he’s a boy… and we’ll be in my room… alone… no shame…
    thank the universe I am out of their grasp…

  3. ex_drunkard50 November 1, 2002 at 6:22 am #

    I had fun last night. I wish we could’ve actually hung out for a while and stuff. 😦 Maybe some other time since you don’t live far!

    • bboyneko November 1, 2002 at 6:51 am #

      yeah I got your number, and im online all the time. IM me and i’ll give you my number. I’m always up for hanging out. 🙂 Thank you again for a good time.

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